Maybe this is the end,
So, I want
to tell you everything
Monday, December 17, 2007
"Sigh"
I'm not sure about my future in school...
I'm stuck between the choice of 1st and 2nd language for Chinese in school...
People say I should swap in 2nd language because my standard...
"Yes...I know my Chinese stinks..."
People say I should stay in 1st language,same class...
"But judging from my standard...I don't think that I'll do good in the same class.
Besides,the teacher is using Cantonese most of the time,which I don't understand..."
People say I should change to 1s language,other classes...
"But...It'll affect my teacher,as she may think I dislike her..."
Really stressed about this...
By choosing 1st language,I would be able to get an A for my grade.
A good grade for my report card...
But I'm struggling to survive in my class...'Cause I'm the last in class...
By selecting 2nd language,life would be more easier for me...
Understandable language and easy work...Ideal life for Chinese...
But,I would only get a C at the maximum for my grade...
And,crap,it'll affect my final grade...
Still,it all comes down to 1 question...
To change...Or not to change...?
"A thirst for love...
A thirst for blood...
Control yourself...
Don't let it flood
In your pure mind..
Where your beauty
And youth finds
Freedom inside..."
- 10:27 AM -
Saturday, December 15, 2007
Most of the times,we look things in our perspective...
But have we ever looked from another's point of view..?
Why couldn't we say the good things about your enemies,
but the worst that comes from them?
Similarly,why can't being silent and observant be good for oneself?
Although I know that being a friend means to be able to communicate easily...
But I find it hard to do so...
From the events that happened tonight...
I know that my presence only affects a few...
I don't have the power to attract people's attention...
I don't have the initiative to talk to people in the face...
I don't know why this is happening to me...
But for all I know,
This...is me...
Being silent has it's good points...
It ensures one to be focused in whatever he or she is doing.
But at the same time,one must sacrifice his or her communication skills to do so.
Being observant has it's advantages...
It allows one to notice the changes in the environment,and could quickly respond to that...
Unfortunately,friends would be afraid if one is observing him or her,making the observed feel insecure.
It's all clear...
I'm just a small character in this whole thing...
"Walking alone ain't bad...
Walking without anyone ain't gonna hurt...
Walking with a clutch ain't embarrassing...
Walking with a regret ain't good...."
- 12:00 AM -
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
"I looked at the spot...
A perfect spot to waste my time...
There stood a lone tree.
A wide tree.A tall tree.
I sat under the arms of the titan.
Its arm spreading around me.
I started to embrace in its arm,
And let my consciousness fade...
It was a fantastic party..
All my friends were there..
I looked into their faces..
And I cracked a smile..
A touching scene I must say..
For that would be a scene I would never have..
That moment would never belong to me..
But I enjoyed that period of time..
The happy faces..The excited faces..The sad faces...
A bright light shined onto my face,waking me from my dreams...
I sat up from that comfortable spot,that spot..
The spot that brought memories back..
I approached the stairs,leaving this seemly sacred grounds.
But it made me turn back once more,
As the lonely tree stood there,
Never to move,never to speak,
But never fails to bring the past back..."
- 10:46 PM -
est. 2003 OCT
Austin at 14...Going on 15
"Telling A Tale From My Heart...
A Story That Is Currently Progressing.
Life's Not A Game...
Although We Want To Have Many Chances..
Sadly,Unfortunately,That's Never Going To Happen.
Regrets...Sorrows...Hatred...Revenge..
Thoughts Of Negative Actions...
That's When A Beast Is Coming From You
And Coming For You Too."
"I'm Just Here Alone...
And You Guys Aren't Here...
I Feel Like An Outsider...
A Person That Wants To Be Known,
But Fears Of Jealousy And Anger.
So What Could I Do?
Just Wait Here Silently For An Angel...
To Save Me From This Emotionless Body..."
FRIENDS
CREDITS
TAGBOARD
b>ARCHIVES
April 2007