Maybe this is the end,
So, I want
to tell you everything
Monday, December 17, 2007
"Sigh"
I'm not sure about my future in school...
I'm stuck between the choice of 1st and 2nd language for Chinese in school...
People say I should swap in 2nd language because my standard...
"Yes...I know my Chinese stinks..."
People say I should stay in 1st language,same class...
"But judging from my standard...I don't think that I'll do good in the same class.
Besides,the teacher is using Cantonese most of the time,which I don't understand..."
People say I should change to 1s language,other classes...
"But...It'll affect my teacher,as she may think I dislike her..."
Really stressed about this...
By choosing 1st language,I would be able to get an A for my grade.
A good grade for my report card...
But I'm struggling to survive in my class...'Cause I'm the last in class...
By selecting 2nd language,life would be more easier for me...
Understandable language and easy work...Ideal life for Chinese...
But,I would only get a C at the maximum for my grade...
And,crap,it'll affect my final grade...
Still,it all comes down to 1 question...
To change...Or not to change...?
"A thirst for love...
A thirst for blood...
Control yourself...
Don't let it flood
In your pure mind..
Where your beauty
And youth finds
Freedom inside..."
- 10:27 AM -
Saturday, December 15, 2007
Most of the times,we look things in our perspective...
But have we ever looked from another's point of view..?
Why couldn't we say the good things about your enemies,
but the worst that comes from them?
Similarly,why can't being silent and observant be good for oneself?
Although I know that being a friend means to be able to communicate easily...
But I find it hard to do so...
From the events that happened tonight...
I know that my presence only affects a few...
I don't have the power to attract people's attention...
I don't have the initiative to talk to people in the face...
I don't know why this is happening to me...
But for all I know,
This...is me...
Being silent has it's good points...
It ensures one to be focused in whatever he or she is doing.
But at the same time,one must sacrifice his or her communication skills to do so.
Being observant has it's advantages...
It allows one to notice the changes in the environment,and could quickly respond to that...
Unfortunately,friends would be afraid if one is observing him or her,making the observed feel insecure.
It's all clear...
I'm just a small character in this whole thing...
"Walking alone ain't bad...
Walking without anyone ain't gonna hurt...
Walking with a clutch ain't embarrassing...
Walking with a regret ain't good...."
- 12:00 AM -
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
"I looked at the spot...
A perfect spot to waste my time...
There stood a lone tree.
A wide tree.A tall tree.
I sat under the arms of the titan.
Its arm spreading around me.
I started to embrace in its arm,
And let my consciousness fade...
It was a fantastic party..
All my friends were there..
I looked into their faces..
And I cracked a smile..
A touching scene I must say..
For that would be a scene I would never have..
That moment would never belong to me..
But I enjoyed that period of time..
The happy faces..The excited faces..The sad faces...
A bright light shined onto my face,waking me from my dreams...
I sat up from that comfortable spot,that spot..
The spot that brought memories back..
I approached the stairs,leaving this seemly sacred grounds.
But it made me turn back once more,
As the lonely tree stood there,
Never to move,never to speak,
But never fails to bring the past back..."
- 10:46 PM -
Friday, November 30, 2007
Yeah!Got 5th place for my poetry recitation contest among 51 of others!
*See?My English is better than you all.Haha*
Nah,just kidding.Don't come killing me or what-so-ever.
Now for my chinese project.."sigh"
*Look the other way..
Just look the other way...*
- 10:38 PM -
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Man...Mountain running just finished a few days ago..
And poetry recitation is going to take place tomorrow.
A competition.Interesting..
*I know it sound surprising to my Singaporean friends that I'm reciting poems..*
*whispers*I'm not really good in English in the past.Hehe.
Feeling the pressure coming on me already...Damn..
*It makes me wonder about life when I wonder up in the skies...
So fragile...Yet so complicated...
People hate it...People love it...
SO let me tell you all about this...
If you you're feeling down...
If you're handling the pressure...
If you're at the edge..
If you're going to break down..
If you're going to collapse..
Look above you...
We share the same skies..
Same happiness..
Same curiosity..
Same strangeness..
Same sorrow..
Let peace blow through your soul...
And purify your negative thoughts away..*
- 10:45 PM -
Monday, November 26, 2007
"gulp",Mountain running tomorrow...
So scared..
Don't think I can handle it..
Wish me luck...
- 10:50 PM -
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Fun fun fun!!!And pain too...Ouch...
Went out with some of my friends(and my brother...)to a war game.
What's a war game,you ask?
A war game is like counter strike,only that you're really going to pull the trigger at your friend(sounds weird but I kind of liked that game.)
Got some shots at my friends,and they got me too...
But my brother had it in the nuts(Ouch!!)
He's okay..He can still start a family,don't worry about it.
If we're getting games like this in singapore,that would be so cool!
But still,we have to follow laws..."sigh"
Get back to you guys tomorrow...
Having a wild time next week...
Wish me luck...
*我不断的跟自己说过。。。不要为了自己所想要的东西或事情而变得自私。。。
但是,我心里已经被你着迷了。。。
我因为不想伤害自己所爱的人,而决定不要和你开始这段情。
但是,我现在有很矛盾。。。
我所做的选择是对的吗?
不想让你伤心,但自己也有一点痛苦。。。
希望长大以后可以和你相处。。。。“
- 10:49 PM -
est. 2003 OCT
Austin at 14...Going on 15
"Telling A Tale From My Heart...
A Story That Is Currently Progressing.
Life's Not A Game...
Although We Want To Have Many Chances..
Sadly,Unfortunately,That's Never Going To Happen.
Regrets...Sorrows...Hatred...Revenge..
Thoughts Of Negative Actions...
That's When A Beast Is Coming From You
And Coming For You Too."
"I'm Just Here Alone...
And You Guys Aren't Here...
I Feel Like An Outsider...
A Person That Wants To Be Known,
But Fears Of Jealousy And Anger.
So What Could I Do?
Just Wait Here Silently For An Angel...
To Save Me From This Emotionless Body..."
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